Revelations From Chrissy Metz’s Memoir ‘This Is Me’
One night, Chrissy’s mother went out dancing and there she met a man named Trigger (a nickname from The Roy Rogers Show). “Trigger had a good job with Coca-Cola and seemed stable, which is what mom needed. He lived with his daughter, Rebecca, in a small, single-story, cinder-block house on a dead-end road in Gainesville,” Metz shares in the book. At the time Monica had moved out with a boyfriend, and Phillip had become a problem and sent to live with Mark in Miami, leaving Chrissy, her mother, and Morgana to move in with Trigger and Rebecca. Unfortunately, Trigger soon became abusive to Chrissy, and what started out as verbal turned to physical abuse as well. “My mom married Trigger at the courthouse,” Metz writes in her book. “Soon she was pregnant again, with another girl, Abigail. Trigger loved his two biological children and was even welcoming to Morgana. Me, not so much. My mother was always at work, so she didn’t see how he treated me.” She added, “I don’t remember why Trigger hit me the first time. He never punched my face. Just my body, the thing that offended him so much. He shoved me, slapped me, punched my arm. He would hit me if he thought I looked at him wrong. I remember being on the kitchen floor after he knocked me over, and I was begging to know what I did. He just shoved me hard with his foot.” When she was 14, Trigger would force her to weigh herself in front of him. “He sat in a chair next to the scale as I got on. ‘Good God almighty!’ he yelled every single time. The number then was about 140 or 130. Most of my friends weighed about ninety pounds. ‘Why are you getting fatter?’ he demanded. I look at pictures of me from that time, and I would be so fine with being that size now. But I thought I was gigantic. By then the beating had escalated. One time he hit me, and I looked right in his face. If I had a gun, I thought, I would shoot you.” Despite what she was subjected to, Metz added that she has a relationship with Trigger and still loves him. “We have a relationship now. I do love him and I do care about him,” she says.